Gasp!

My dentist is leaving the practice! I'm so sad to lose her, she's been my best dentist to date. She remembers me and is the sweetest woman and would have been excited to hear that I'm pregnant. She's removed my wisdom teeth and took care of the tiny cavity I needed filled. She was even sweet to me when right before my wedding I had some pain and couldn't tell if it was just a little canker sore or an actual problem (turned out it was a canker sore). I'm a little more devastated than I had expected to be. I don't want to see Dr. K, I don't know who Dr. K is! I need a wisdom tooth pulled, that's a big deal, I trust Dr. Kostyk.

What a tragic discovery. And to top it off they're both working really lousy hours until April.
L

Cold Hands, Cold Heart

So the hoped for basement suite had some serious flaws. We're about to be homeless and we're depressed.

The cold has made us unproductive... laundry hasn't been done (I'm wearing Brad's socks today because I'm out of clean ones), house cleaning is being ignored, breakfast has been skipped every day this week. If it can't be done while I'm under the warmth of a blanket it's probably not going to get done. I dread that moment where it's time to take off the pajamas and put on real clothes; it must be done as quickly as possible.

Although she's clearly in the wrong I'm sure there's going to be a fight with our landlady and I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what's going to happen to us.

It seems like this past 6 months have been nothing but a string of bad luck. Hoping for a change and happier, warmer days.
L

Worst Hair Cut Ever

So I have this really bad haircut... but it's late and I'm sleepy so that's all you'll hear about it tonight, I'll add to this post later but will leave you with some pictures... believe me, it's even worse than the pictures make it look.
L

This Day

I've been holding out for a long time. Most of you know this. It all boils down to one reason though. One reason is strong enough. I want to see pictures of baby Porter.

So this day... I head over, and though it pains me to say... I'm about to open a Facebook account.

Keep the mockings to a minimum please.
L

Absent Friends

Brad and I were so excited, from work he got 8 tickets, plus dinner to the fireworks competition, which we love. What a great idea! We were thrilled to invite a bunch of our friends, but who to choose, there were so many options! So the narrowing down started.

We extended our first invite to Naomi and Dave and they were excited, yay, success!
We next called Ian and Jen, the perfect time to hang out with them, only Ian is out of town. Fine, we’ll take just Jenn and Invite Cora to take his place, only Cora has plans.
Fine, we’re 3 down and have lots of time... only now the trouble starts...

Jenn is out of town so Jenn and Nathan are out
Jane is out of town so Jane and Ken are out
Lisa and Brady are still on their honeymoon
Chris and Lynn just moved
Dan is in Idaho
Marissa and Brendan have plans
Lisa and Doug are moving that weekend
Kim and Andrew are going out of town
Julie and David are down in Magrath
Irena has to work
We found Janine who was excited but then had to cancel
And then sadly Dave and Naomi also had to cancel*

We did luck out and Ian became available but here we are, 6 hours before the event and we have 4 remaining tickets... it’s starting to be depressing.

We made a real effort... called more people than we could have imagined necessary... if we missed you I’m sorry, it wasn’t on purpose and if you read this in time then call me, we’d love to have you come! We’re now out of ideas and may have to try to scalp our tickets... it’s a bit of a sad day.
L

*Names are not listed in the order called

Painless

Until this empty place is filled, I’ll keep pretending

Consider "this emply place" filled

Here's to good friends who have the ability to make me feel better with such surprising compliments.

I really needed that today, Thanks!
L

Eyebrow Eve Redux

I’m giving in to the pressure.
I cannot take one more mean comment about Eyebrow Eve and so I’ve removed it.
You’ve refused to leave it, to let it go. I thought it best for me to stay out of it, to not respond to comments, to let us agree to disagree but that wasn’t enough for you.
I was trying to stay true to the blog... to leave my thoughts on, to not give in and remove it but you felt that you should make me feel terrible because you didn’t like what I said.

I read and re-read the blog entry and I just do not find it offensive. I’m sorry that it offended you and I’m also sorry that you felt it necessary to leave me mean comments.

I never claimed my blog to be anything but my thoughts...

I’m sure you won’t agree with this but comments will not be allowed on this post. Because it’s my blog I can do that. I know how you feel; you think I’m a bully. You think that I was trying to impress my friends, you think I’m mean. I get it. I don’t need to hear it from you again. You’re wrong. You didn’t understand me.

I want to move on. I don’t want to rehash this topic over and over so if more comments are left regarding it I will remove them.

If I’ve offended you and you feel the need to stop reading the blog then I can understand that... if you want to stick around then I’m more than happy to have you here.

Let’s just be friends again
L

Lappy goes to the Hospital

If you know me at all you know that I LOVE my laptop.
I bought it a year ago and I spend lots of time on it. I download tv shows I wouldn't normally bother to watch, I have crazy amounts of music and I just downloaded Lemmings.

Well Lappy is sick. The screen is kind of coming apart, I know, it's not good.
So I called Dell and I need to ship my laptop to them to get it fixed. They'll pay all shipping costs so this is a good thing, only drawback... she'll be gone for 7-10 business days!

What am I to do without my dear Lappy...
L

Better left unsaid?

The vault has a leak today... if ever there was something you wanted to know from me today’s the day to ask... I’m spilling info everywhere.

• I don’t like the way you treat her
• Stop talking about your feelings!
• You’re too good for him
• She’s just not that into you
• He really likes you, why don’t you treat him better?
• You’re right, he’s not interested
• She's not as head over heels as you think she is
• Talking to you still throws me off
• I wish you wouldn’t marry him
• I’m sorry you’re so sad and I wish I could make it better
• I hate how you use me
• I really like you and wish it didn’t make me afraid

L

Spots

The leopard just showed his spots

Such a dissapointing thing to say, attitude to have
She doesn't deserve that

What makes us friends again? I can't seem to remember
L

Sorry

It's 1:30 in the morning and I'm so tired my head hurts but I just can't sleep.

Maybe it's the stupid, petty fight I had earlier with a really good friend
Maybe it's the list of things I need to do tomorrow, running through my head
Maybe it's this weird mood I'm in

Sorry if I was weird tonight
L

**Update**
Maybe it was the flu that I think has just set in... could be

There's an Ogre in my Shoes

You ever feel like an ogre woke up in your place?

I'm grouchy today, unreasonable grouchy. I suppose I could blame it on lack of sleep but since I chose to stay up late it's not really a very good excuse.

It's taking all my energy to keep myself in check and not inappropriately rip someone's head off. I'm seriously concerned for Betty... one wrong move and I could blow.

Be patient with me today, I'll be my usual cheery self tomorrow, promise.
L

Mascara Lament

The day was bright, the sky was blue,
and then came the shock, it can't be true.

What to do? I think I'll cry
But then it'll smudge, it must be a lie.

They're gone from Canada, never to return.
But where will I get the mascara I yearn?

Calorie 2000, so thick and black;
I tried some Great Lash... Boy did it lack.

I want some drama, my tantrum will last
But my favorite mascara is a thing of the past.

So I'm forced to switch to some other brand
While I wait for Max Factor to return to my Land

So this is my Eulogy, I'll continue to cry
To my fair mascara, I bid you goodbye
L

Mean is hereditary

So I have this really mean landlady... and when I say mean I'm referring to the kind of person that takes pleasure in drowning kittens. Somehow she's gotten the idea that we're really bad tenants, I'm not sure how she came to this conclusion. We pay our rent, we mow the lawn (occasionally), we haven't destroyed anything in the house and we very seldom call to have things fixed. But despite the mentioned points she thinks we're awful. She's decided to raise our rent $300 which is unfortunate.

So she called about 2 1/2 weeks ago to say she'd be out of town for a while. She gave us the name of either her son or daughter to call if we had problems and she reminded me that she needed new rent cheques... no problem. I had every intention of taking them over early just to be considerate but things came up and I forgot. So today I realize it's the 30th and she needs cheques by tomorrow so I dropped them off in her mailbox around noon.

I come home this evening around 8:00 and there's a message from Mean Landlady's daughter. I'm going to type the message in as much detail as I can remember:

"Hi this is Mean Landlady's Daughter, I was supposed to have cheques from you by this morning but when I checked the mailbox they weren't there. Just wondering where they are or if this is your way of giving notice. Please call me because until I hear from you I'm going to assume this is your way of giving notice to vacate the property."

Going to assume we're vacating the property??? What? That was completely unecessarey... rent is due on the 1st, not the 30th. I have every right to wait until tomorrow to deliver them if I so choose. I called and left a very pleasant message saying we are not giving notice and the cheques are in the mailbox but I'm annoyed... there's no reason to be so mean about everything. Her tone was very rude and condescending.

And we get it already... you want us to move...

Good to see her mother is rubbing off on her
L

"just do it again and this time with feeling"

Straylight Run
A Slow Descent

i'm tired
cynical and broken, but wiser
heavy with a sense of resentment
but i used to be so much different
i used to have so much faith
when i startedyou knew that i always meant it
i knew i could make a difference
i struggled to be heard
and then finally, one day people started listening
and i knew it
but as soon as it began it was ruined
a slow descent from unique to routine
over and over
"just do it again and this time with feeling"
the spotlightthe focus on the friends and the feelings
that made those stupid songs all worth singing
and don't you say a word
unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed
so we drovefor what seemed like days
over roadsand four lane highways
we said all we had to say
and i realized in time that it didn't mean anything
never
not ever again...
not like that
"it's only a matter of time"

L

Thoughts of a Rainy Day

If the weather were my mood today it would be dark, cloudy and rainy.
Despite my really great weekend I'm sad.

When I was little my Barbie's always had the same name...My average time at every job I've worked is 3 years. I've been in Calgary for 6 years and only lived in 3 houses, all within 8 blocks of each other. I don't like change...I don't like when change is forced on me...

I don't like when people think they know me and it turns out they don't have a clue.
I worry too much about what others think...
I should be nicer...

Most of all I don't like drama

I shouldn't blog when I'm sad
L

Dark Day for Laura

Yesterday was a dark day at work...

Apparently my MSN was noticed and so it was removed. I'm now left with nothing to do in my boredom but blog. My first thought when it was removed was "Maybe I should find a new job". I'll admit, that's a bit extreme and the desire passed but I was pretty devastated. At least I still have iTunes. I'll use Web Messenger occasionally but it's to frustrating to use all day.

So I have a new nephew...his name is Tyler James and he was born on January 31st at 11:00 am. He's just the cutest boy ever isn't he?
L