Baby Boy

According to an Old Wives Quiz we're having a boy.

Taken with a grain of salt, since it's so early I did have to make up the important answers. Like, are you carrying high or low? Is the baby's heart rate over 140 or under 140 bpm.

I could answer the questions like do you eat the heel of the loaf of bread and which direction does your pillow face.
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Starting to Sink In

Yesterday we finally were able to start telling people about our Dinosaur and it's definitely made it start to feel more real. It was fun to tell Brad's siblings and see how excited for us they were.

I'm looking forward to then end of this first trimester, my poor house needs some attention but I just have no energy to take care of it.
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10 Weeks

Today I had my 10 week checkup with the doctor and it consisted mainly of filling out forms.

One of them asked for Mother's occupation so I started trying to think of an appropriate title to give her. I asked Brad what he would call my Mom... luckily the nurse was still in the room so she could clarify that no, not my Mother, I AM the Mother!!

We got a good chuckle out of it, I think it takes some time before you start to think of yourself as the Mother :)
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24 Hour Nap Time

I know that this dinosaur is such a blessing to us but I'm having a hard time not feeling a little bit resentful towards it… I'm just so exhausted all the time.

I know I should just be grateful that I’m not sick but I slept until noon yesterday and could easily have done the same today. I can barely keep my eyes open and every vacant desk looks perfect for a nap. I've started trying to take naps at lunch time but I'm just such a terrible napper. I get grouchier and grouchier every morning just because I have to get out of bed.

The hardest part is knowing I still have 5 more weeks of this to go…

Looking forward to Saturday.
L

Wiebeosaurus

So lots of people call their unborn baby a peanut, or maybe an alien… forget that, at this point we are very clearly having a baby dinosaur. Our very own little Wiebeosaurus.

Pardon the poor image but here's a diagram to help.

Hopefully our Wiebosaurus is born without claws and is not a Velociraptor, I saw Jurassic Park. L

Week 6

So far (fingers crossed) I haven't been sick. I've often (almost always) felt nauseous but I've appreciated that I haven't been throwing up every morning. I realize it's still early and it could definitely still be coming but I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope I haven't just jinxed myself.

There are two things I have noticed. One is that I'm exhausted. All the time. Today at lunch I went into the "Wellness" room and tried to nap, the only problem is I'm a terrible napper! It takes me a long time to fall asleep so I generally lie there waiting for sleep to come and long before it does it's time to get up.

The other thing I've noticed is how emotional I am. I'll be watching some tv show and it won't even be a big tear jerk moment and I'll start to tear up. I mean come on, I cried in Transformers. Hoping this symptom doesn't last though I suspect I'll be an emotional wreck by the time the baby comes.
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A Little Personal

This goes along with the Trust post and is a little personal but I thought it worth recording so here goes.

This new phase in our life is a pretty huge one, a baby changes things in an exciting way so I decided this would be a good time for a Priesthood blessing from Brad. Kind of like a going to school blessing but instead this would be a having a baby blessing.

As part of the blessing Brad mentioned that our baby (correction, children) would be healthy. He also mentioned that through trusting the Lord, reaching out to him and listening to the Spirit I would know how to comfort our children and that I would be able to quickly recognize prompting when concerning them.

I've been quite concerned about this baby, not for any justifiable reason but because I think it's too good to be true so it just seems like any day now something bad will happen. Because that's been my attitude I've been having a hard time being very excited, like I'm afraid to let myself be happy about this so I'm not disappointed when something does happen.

This is no way to think and certainly no way to show that I believe in what was said so I've turned over a new leaf. My part of fulfilling the blessing is to not have so many concerns and just know that Heavenly Father is looking out for me and things will be just fine, to get excited; to think about this baby often, to find out what's happening right now with it and to be so excited I can hardly wait to tell people.

March 1st can't come soon enough (the day we decided to tell people), I'm excited to ask my sister questions, she's one of the best Mom's I know so I'm looking forward to drawing on that knowledge.
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One quick note…

I thought it worth mentioning that both of my positive tests were from the dollar store. I took one the day after I missed my period and it worked just fine so I definitely think they're the way to go and would recommend them to anyone. I have three left, anyone need some? L

Confirmation

So the doctor has confirmed it yet it still seems not real. To think that this little someone is one their way is such good news that I'm sure it can't be true. Despite my two positive at home tests I was sure the doctor would tell me I was wrong. I think I need a few weeks before I believe it.

One little tidbit I didn't know… I had gone to the doctor's office so soon after I found out because I figured they'd do a nice, indisputable blood test and I'd really feel confident. Turns out all they do is a pee test which I can do at home, I definitely could have waited to go in and felt just a tiny bit silly for going so early :)

Here's to September 19th!
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Trust

The last 6 months have been pretty hard for us. We've had a bunch of little things and big things go wrong.

There was the microwave that broke, and then the pipe in the kitchen that leaked. Then the car was broken into and Brad's books were stolen, we also had the awful landlady who didn't care that we had no heat when it was -30 outside. Through all of that the hardest one has been how badly we wanted a baby and how we had this perfect little plan, timing wise. The plan slipped away month after month until soon there was no plan and only stress.

And then we had no heat and we moved and I can't tell you what a blessing it has been. We looked at the new place on Friday and started moving in on Saturday. It's way bigger than our old apartment and the landlord doesn't charge any damage deposit so financially and emotionally this is the best thing that could have happened to us. And it seemed like a bit of a kick from Heavenly Father saying you thought I wasn't paying attention, but I was, and see how I made things work out so well for you? Remember I'm here, be more grateful for what you have and show me you're grateful. So we kicked up our prayers and have made an effort to rely on the Lord more and I kept having the overwhelming feeling that Heavenly Father is aware of us, he knows how great the baby plan would work but either his plan is better or there's something we're supposed to learn by waiting. It's okay if a baby doesn't come when I think it should, it will come when he thinks it should. So I calmed down, stopped being so stressed about it and just trusted.

As an attempt at sanity I came up with a new plan, instead of obsessing for a week while I wait to see if I'm pregnant I decided to take the test right away, no waiting (those Dollar Store ones are only a dollar after all). That way even when I'm sure I'm not pregnant there will be no little voice in my head saying, "What if…" I can quiet it with a confirmed no and stop being so devastated when I'm finally sure it's a no. So this morning I took the test, just as a formality.

There were two lines! Two completely unexpected lines!

I don't believe it yet, I'm in a bit of shock and I’m so blessed.
Brad's going to be so excited.
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